How can I put into words what I feel?

"I'm terrified of what you'll do. My stomach screams when I look at you."

You see thats how I expect to feel. But I don't. I mean ofcourse I'm scared that he'll break my heart. But I don't know that. I don't want a boyfriend right now, and he doesn't want a girlfriend right now either. So, I guess that works out perfectly. Getting to know him is better than a relationship anyday, I love talking to him and if I could I would spend hours and hours just talking with him :)

But that feelins coming back, the wierd feeling I get in my palms. The feeling I've only had once before. There aren't any butterflies when I'm around him, just smiles. But it's the feeling in my palms that I'm afraid of...I shouldn't look into this it will only make me do something that I'll regret.

I just have to keep faith that God has made the plan and I just need to live it :)